The Dilemma Of It All

collaboration — April 17th 2025…December 29th 2025

Trying to get even

You know, you move so fast

I call him, he comes over

Only he wants it to last

Trying to win something

Or at least catch up

My scent is on your clothing

Your taste is on my tongue

But it’s been a while since

I’ve seen you, face to face

I don’t know how to hide now,

I’ve already played my ace

Now it’s off to California where you start and then I lose

Because second is first loser and I’m never winning you

You needed time to grow up, but I started out young too

I was wise beyond my years, now I’m second-guessing everything I do

I don’t know what to tell you

There is no right answer

And I wanna tell the truth

I can’t help you

I can’t even help myself

Keep running back to you

It’s not the right thing to do

I thought that I had self-control

Losing it felt terrible

Losing you felt worse

So much worse 

Now it’s back to California where you start and then I lose

Because second is first loser and I’m never winning you

You’ve been racing ‘round in circles, baby, I was running too

Tried to find an escape but every turn led back to you

My hair clip, don’t know where it went

It once lived in your drawer

But I haven’t worn it

Since I walked it out your door

Over the threshold 

You’d one day carry me

But in the wrong direction

Blood flowing out to sea

Once again to California, I’m not done, I can’t pretend

Flashbacks to a year before, the beginning of the end

You fuck me up, I still want more, it’s never your turn to amend

I try to smooth it over, break my back each time I bend

I thought that I had self-control

Losing it felt terrible

Losing you felt worse