journal entry — Tuesday, July 1st 2025 — Chamonix –> Nice
A lot of time will have to pass before I am ready to live and do the things I want. I will have to withdraw from probably all of my friends, except maybe one, and go back to the version of life where I don’t feel used, and judged, and shamed by my friends, or commodified & objectified & sexualized by the world.
I need to build walls around myself again, walls that block me from being burned & blinded by the sun, walls that only the worthy will climb over.
The Dilemma Of It All 