The Dilemma Of It All

journal entry — Thursday, May 22nd 2025

1. Get grande drinks instead of venti
2. Not sacrifice sleep to talk to someone
3. Not go on my phone in bed in the morning
4. Keep the fundamental attribution error in mind
5. Root for Team Emma. Not Team Sadness, Beauty, Heartbreak, Tragedy, & Love.
6. Confront cognitive distortions and distract from obsessions in lieu of shutting them down completely
7. Keep the sacred things sacred: my bed, my heart, my body
8. Remember that not everything needs to be verbalized. Especially mean thoughts.
9. Get a hug when I need a hug
10. Beware of spitefulness and hypocrisy
11. Remember my life is mine. Don’t worship another fallible, human, easy-to-romanticize person.
12. Obviously no smoking & no drinking for the wrong reasons
13. Remember I have POTS and not critique my fatigue or condemn myself as “lazy”
14. Save a seat for my feelings
15. Exercise as enrichment, not as punishment
16. Drink water even when I’m not regularly running
17. Appreciate every moment where I’m able to apply myself in school and not feel limited by my other circumstances
18. Pay for gas using cash
19. Make music
20. Love my friends
21. Say thank you as much as possible